A roller coaster... happy and sad, amazing and emotional, full of loss but also gain, with lots of tears as well as laughter and smiles. So much has happened over the last year that I don't even know where to start! Maybe the beginning is a good place.
The year started with me feeling happy, happy with my weight loss from the previous year, happy with all the changes I'd been through and to have finally started a new chapter in my life. I got a job so it was time to start putting myself first. I met someone last year, then didn't see him for months but met again at the beginning of this year. He is the most amazing, kind, caring man I've ever met and although we've had a rough first year, it won't end here!
Then there's my dad who became ill in April and deteriorated a lot in September. He isn't the same man now as he was and he's unlikely to get any better so that has caused the most sadness. Our family dynamics have changed because of this too.
I've lost a friend through a rumour but have also gained friends, you find out who your real friends are when you need them. My amazing man is so busy working and doing his Masters that we don't have much time together, that has been really hard while my dad has been so ill.
This year I've learnt to make the most of the time you have with people and not to take them for granted. To appreciate, secure, love, support and help those close to you.
The thing that's keeping me going is that, hopefully in April the Masters will be finished and my amazing man and I can start our lives together properly and do all the things we've talked about. I'm looking forward to moving next year and finally and definitely putting myself first.
The past stays in the past, the present is for living and the future is for planning.
Christmas won't be the same this year, we won't have the hustle and bustle of the family but I'm coping because I have to. I hope you all have a lovely Christmas and New Year.